I play drums and I write.
I’d like to try to sum the past three weeks of my life up, but i’m having trouble finding the words to. I’ll start with this.
Stepping out of your comfort zone is a quick way to learn a lot about yourself. It has helped me to try new things, face fears and challenges, meet new people, and share my thoughts with them… Recently I visited my friend in Chicago. Our nights were filled with craft beer, singing songs around bonfires, telling scar stories, and most of all just talking. Even if it was about nothing, talking things out with people you trust ultimately makes life much easier to understand. You learn a lot about yourself when you express how you feel out loud. You can sit in your head with your thoughts all day, but I feel like a lot of the problem solving happens when you can voice it and you have someone there to just talk it out with. I feel so lucky that I have those kinds of people in my life that I can talk it out with.
I’ve been going through something this past year… figuring out who I am, and identifying myself. Constantly asking myself… what’s my purpose? Why am I here and what am I supposed to be doing? Sure, I love playing music, that’s ultimately what I’d like to do. But is that good enough? What can I do to help others? I have one chance on this planet and one life… What am I supposed to be doing? Trying is a start. And I know I haven’t done enough of that in the last year. I’ve felt like something has been holding me back. I just wasn’t sure who I was for a long time… And now I totally understand when people say they don’t know who they are. For a while, I always questioned that. “What do you mean you don’t know who you are? You’re you, it’s as simple as that…” or so I thought. But that’s not it at all. I hate to sound all emotional, but it really is much more complex than that.
To sum it up…
Sometimes people can ruin you, and then you become this lower grade version of yourself, and it’s really hard to come out of that… But you have to remember who you are. Shake it off, go back to your roots, remind yourself of where you came from. Rebuild yourself and then get back out into the world and take it on with all you’ve got. We just have to remember to try. Be somebody of substance. We’re all capable of it.
If you read this, thank you.
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